Worship What I Hate

I keep lookin' at myself in the mirror Hopin' it will change And I keep wishin' for a brand-new body That I didn't have to blame I'm seein' every flaw like a failure I'm using every cure like a savior Like tryna build a church out of all my hurt When it really needs grace I gave all my time to nothin' I focused on who I was not who I'm becomin' My fears, they took up space My eyes couldn't look away I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate Half a bottle of red just before bed Is the only way I dream Before I rеally wake up The first thing I touch is a button on a screen I'm not guilty of leavin', not stickin' around I'm guilty of stayin' and just chеckin' out Yeah, I kept my head down and really missed out On what's in front of me 'Cause I gave all my time to nothin' I focused on who I was, not who I'm becomin' My fears, they took up space My eyes couldn't look away I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate Why do the lies feel like the truth? Why do I do the things I do? Why do I fight so hard to keep my heart empty? 'Cause I gave so much time to nothin' I focused on who I was, not who I'm becomin' My fears, they took up space My eyes couldn't look away I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate I didn't even realize (realize) I didn't even realize (realize) I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate Didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate (Ooh-ooh-ooh) (Ooh-ooh-ooh) Didn't even realize, no (ooh-ooh-ooh) Didn't even realize, didn't know (ooh-ooh-ooh) (Ooh-ooh-ooh) Mmm, yeah (ooh-ooh-ooh) (Ooh-ooh-ooh) (Ooh-ooh-ooh)