Unalive (10 of Swords)

Why do I try? I can't help sometimes I feel so unalive Just a shell of who I was What I've seen has torn me up All I do is run and run I can't escape who I've become I feel it in my chest I wish I could forget A memory of who I was is all that I have left And I can't breathe (I try and try but never getting it right) Lost a part of me (I toss and turn it happens every night) Why do I try? I can't help myself sometimes I feel so unalive Why do I try? I can't help myself sometimes I feel so unalive Like a zombie decaying My heart beat is fading Paranoid I'm close to death My life is hanging by a thread Dead man walking The reapers been calling I can feel this is the end Guiding me up to the edge And now I can't breathe (I try and try but never getting it right) Lost a part of me (I toss and turn it happens every night) Why do I try? I can't help myself sometimes I feel so unalive Why do I try? I can't help myself sometimes I feel so unalive Breaking down I'm such a tragedy I'm paranoid that someone's out for me Why do I try? I can't help myself sometimes I feel so unalive Why do I try? I can't help myself sometimes I feel so unalive Why do I try? I can't help myself sometimes I feel so unalive (I try and try but never getting it right) I feel so unalive